Wow. Wow, this was really really an intense little piece.
Especially, I guess, for someone like me that looooooves to over-analyze and over-think these boys. Especially Key, though.
I remember when I first stepped into the SHINee fandom five months ago and I kept saying to myself that Key was the only one that I couldn't quite "get" (though now, ironically enough, he's pretty much my SHINee bias hahahaha) and that I felt he was such an enigma to me. And this fic pretty much lists all the reasons why I had such conflicting feelings about him at first.
He's the umma, the girl of the group, simply because feminine-looking Taemin-ah was already the maknae. Sometimes I wonder if it's the angles or the stagelights, because there's times when I think this way too (a-and Taemin is my favorite member, too /flails), but this is so true. For all of them, really, I've had moments where I went, "Ahhh, is this photoshopped...? Makeup...? --Oh, but I can see pores, so..." over a picture and--as strange as it sounds, this reminded me of how much I love the pictures where you can see the imperfections on their faces...because it gives them a sense of humanity that we don't see so often when they're larger-than-life "idols" to us. It's amazing, really...
He is not the lead singer, and nobody (especially the fans, God forbid) will ever think he's manly---not now, and certainly not in the next three years. So he is the diva, the beauty, the temper, the one everyone is afraid to piss off.
And the fans nod, and scream and squeal, and they love it.
They love him for it.
Ouch. Just...ouch. ;X; I'm pretty sure those lines were meant to sting, because...they sure did for me. And it resonates rather strongly, too, with all the times I've looked at Key and went, "You seem really confident, Kibum-ah...but I wonder about you~"
It's...probably just my imagination, but sometimes I get the feeling that immediately after he goes and does something that only Key could get away with (dance to every girlgroup song in existence, fixes his hair/primps/et al, or does just about -anything- that makes people question him if only for a second or two), I'm seeing a rare flicker of something there in his eyes that hints at hidden insecurity; a nagging self-consciousness that he's trying so hard to compensate for, something...
Idk exactly what I was thinking as I read this, honestly. But...it was something like that. (Sorry!! :x) I really hope I'm not killing this comment with my TL;DR thoughts here, either homg ;;;;
A-And THANK YOU for writing this beautiful (although sad...) piece that's gotten me to think about these kind of things again! Really, it's so refreshing to read this kind of fic every once in a while especially when it's written by someone that can really write & convey this kind of thing well. :'))♥
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Date: 2010-05-03 08:24 pm (UTC)Wow. Wow, this was really really an intense little piece.
Especially, I guess, for someone like me that looooooves to over-analyze and over-think these boys. Especially Key, though.
I remember when I first stepped into the SHINee fandom five months ago and I kept saying to myself that Key was the only one that I couldn't quite "get" (though now, ironically enough, he's pretty much my SHINee bias hahahaha) and that I felt he was such an enigma to me. And this fic pretty much lists all the reasons why I had such conflicting feelings about him at first.
He's the umma, the girl of the group, simply because feminine-looking Taemin-ah was already the maknae.
Sometimes I wonder if it's the angles or the stagelights, because there's times when I think this way too (a-and Taemin is my favorite member, too /flails), but this is so true. For all of them, really, I've had moments where I went, "Ahhh, is this photoshopped...? Makeup...? --Oh, but I can see pores, so..." over a picture and--as strange as it sounds, this reminded me of how much I love the pictures where you can see the imperfections on their faces...because it gives them a sense of humanity that we don't see so often when they're larger-than-life "idols" to us. It's amazing, really...
He is not the lead singer, and nobody (especially the fans, God forbid) will ever think he's manly---not now, and certainly not in the next three years. So he is the diva, the beauty, the temper, the one everyone is afraid to piss off.
And the fans nod, and scream and squeal, and they love it.
They love him for it.
Ouch. Just...ouch. ;X; I'm pretty sure those lines were meant to sting, because...they sure did for me. And it resonates rather strongly, too, with all the times I've looked at Key and went, "You seem really confident, Kibum-ah...but I wonder about you~"
It's...probably just my imagination, but sometimes I get the feeling that immediately after he goes and does something that only Key could get away with (dance to every girlgroup song in existence, fixes his hair/primps/et al, or does just about -anything- that makes people question him if only for a second or two), I'm seeing a rare flicker of something there in his eyes that hints at hidden insecurity; a nagging self-consciousness that he's trying so hard to compensate for, something...
Idk exactly what I was thinking as I read this, honestly. But...it was something like that. (Sorry!! :x) I really hope I'm not killing this comment with my TL;DR thoughts here, either homg ;;;;
A-And THANK YOU for writing this beautiful (although sad...) piece that's gotten me to think about these kind of things again! Really, it's so refreshing to read this kind of fic every once in a while especially when it's written by someone that can really write & convey this kind of thing well. :'))♥